Intersoul Highway

2007-03-10T19:06:00.000-06:00

Feel like something’s always been wrong.
Love of life is hitting way too strong.
May be we were born too late. May be not born at all.
Lets try and cure your latest pains.
Prescribe the life that’s driving me insane.
Tragic turn of fatal flaws. My heart’s burnt to black.
Feel like the storms come to cut me down.
On the lash, it’s time to get the fuck out of town.
Attention spans a moment’s escape.
These escapes they come so small.
Tragic turns and curses the walls.
All the best learn to live life like a vampire.
And tell their stories to the campfire.
Doesn’t everybody know they gotta lose themselves once in a while?
Sleep all day just to kill time. Let the sun slide out of the sky.
Doesn’t everybody know?
I can feel it. Can’t you feel it now? Feels like stealing.
Come on lets start the healing. Gimme feeling.

Lachrymology

2006-12-13T04:50:00.000-06:00

Through physical and mental pain we are given a great gift.

It is our choice to interepret it as such and apply the wisdom gained from it.

In the deepest depths of our gloom, hate, or utter chaos do we realize who we are. Are we merely being coaxed or is this who we are?

Crying itself is merely a catalyst for a change to good or to bad. It is the mere result of feeling completely empty and lost.

I am borderline rambling.

Alhamdulillah for the gift that has been given to me.
Alhamdulillah for the full functionality of my body and limbs and brain.
Alhamdulillah for not being forsaken by the people I know.
Alhamdulillah for not being forsaken by God.
Alhamdulillah for the pain I feel.

waka waka

2006-12-06T15:01:00.000-06:00

WHAT'S TATERS PRECIOUS??

POTATOES POTATOES YRRRAAAAHAHHHHHHHH

WAKA WAKA POTATO NEGRO WAKA LAKA CHIPS CHIPS CHIPSSSSS

In love with tragedy

2006-11-28T22:44:00.000-06:00

Burning in the corner is the only one
Who dreams he had you with him
My body turns and yearns for a sleep
That won't ever come
It's never over,
My kingdom for a kiss upon her shoulder
It's never over,
all my riches for her smiles when I slept so soft against her...
It's never over,
All my blood for the sweetness of her laughter...
It's never over,
She's a tear that hangs inside my soul forever...

But maybe I'm just too young to keep good love
From going wrong
Oh... lover you should've come over...

(Jeff Buckley - "Lover, You Should've Come Over")

I find myself drowning myself in this kind of crap at times like these.

Why does it seem that your average person is absolutely in love with tragedy and misery. We tend to avoid it, but when it comes to us we do not simply turn our backs on it. We embrace it. We nurture it while we believe it nurtures us.

I miss the comfort in being sad.

(Nirvana - "Frances Farmer Will Have Her Revenge On Seattle")

Eventually, in the deeper depths of gloom and misery do we realize it was not aiding us. We are no longer in control. And there is nothing to embrace or hold.

The only thing left is to turn to God. Usually, that will help more than anything...

She’ll always be what I can’t find
She’ll always be where I break down
She’ll always hide behind a star
I’ll always dream she can’t be far

(Failure - "Another Space Song")

...but, at this point, the person is [self-] programmed to keep delving into the pain hoping for a way out. But as we know, one who dives into the sea can only find air going one way - back up.

My scope is completely diminished.
I don't even pray for myself.

I hope someone will pray for me, but I think it would be ridiculous to ask for it since I don't even do so myself.

Hmmm...did I just ask for it? Oh, what a sly devil I am!

P.S. - I suggest checking out those songs if you listen to music.

2006-11-17T12:02:00.000-06:00

I just want to differentiate between "true love" and "in love".

"In love" tends to be more superficial in nature. It results from such things as physical attraction, physical intimacy, recieving attention. It usually ends at the onset of marriage or soon after (where "true love" is assumed to replace it). Think of the phrase "the honeymoon is over".

"True love" transcends superficial facades. It's a connection of the heart and willingness to incorporate logic into the relationship. In fact, "true love" rarely clouds logic in the way that "in love" does.

I must say, the most dangerous thing I've ever been involved with in my life was being madly in love.

We have free will and control of our actions and decisions. Falling in love is not a choice, it is something destined.

It is out of our hands.

But we are still in control of our actions.

2006-11-07T18:54:00.000-06:00

As the polls close like a casket
On truth devoured
Silent play in the shadow of power
A spectacle monopolized
The cameras eyes on choice disguised
Was it cast for the mass who burn and toil?
Or for the vultures who thirst for blood and oil?

Greater Israel

2006-11-05T18:44:00.000-06:00

I kinda wish Israel would go ahead and take over the Arabian peninsula.

2006-11-05T15:08:00.000-06:00

After being in a very involved yr long relationship with Yasmen, I'm heartbroken because she is forced to marry someone she is not at all interested in. Sure her love for me is probably the biggest barrier in which she doesn't want this man.

Maybe this is for the better?
Or maybe since we've been doing so much wrong, that we will be increased in wrong from here on out so that we may suffer for indulging in worldly pleasures.

What the Prophet Said About the Excellent Merits of Various Parts [of the Qur'an]

2006-10-29T04:54:00.000-06:00

I cut this right out of here. Some of these you may already know, but hopefully there will be some refreshing new things for us that we'll apply immediately. So onto what I stole....

The Prophet, blessings and peace be on him, is reported to have said:

Surah al-Fatihah (I)

'Shall I not teach you the greatest Surah in the Qur'an', said he, and then taught al-Fatihah and described it as the great Qur'an [recital] I have been given', reports Abu Sa'id al-Mu'alla (Bukhari).

'Rejoice in the two lights brought to you which have not been brought to any prophet before you': al-Fatihah and the last verses of Surah al-Baqarah (2: 2854), said an angel to the Prophet, blessings and peace be on him, reports Abdullah Ibn 'Abbas (Muslim).

'By Him in whose hands is my soul, nothing like it has been sent down in the Tawrah, nor in the Injll, nor in the Zabdr, nor in the Qur'an', reports Abu Hurayrah ( Tirmidhi) .

'It is a healing for every sickness', reports 'Abd al-Malik Ibn 'Umayr (Darimi).

Surah al-Falaq and Surah al-Nas (113 and 114)

'The like of these have never been seen', reports 'Uqbah Ibn Amir (Muslim).

'No seeker of refuge can seek refuge with anything like these two', reports 'Uqbah Ibn 'Amir (Abd Da'ud).

Surah al-Ikhlas (112)

'Is any of you incapable of reciting a third of the Qur'an in a night?' asked he, and then proceeded to instruct: recite al-Ikhlas, 'for [by the One in whose hands is my life], it is equivalent to [reading] a third of the Qur'an', reports Abu Sa'id al-Khudri (Bukhari, Muslim).

'Tell him that Allah loves him', said he about a man who recited it in every Prayer because it described the Most-merciful, reports 'A'ishah (Bukhari, Muslim).

'Your love for it will admit you into Paradise', he said to a man who loved al-Ikhlas, reports Anas (Tirmidhi), Bukhari).

Surah al-Kafirun (109)

'It is equivalent to a quarter of the Qur'an', report Abdullah Ibn 'Abbas and Anas Ibn Malik (Tirmidhi).

Surah al-Nasr (110)

'It is equivalent to a fourth of the Qur'an', reports Anas (Tirmidhi).

Surah al-Takathur (102)

'Cannot one of you recite one thousand verses in one day' asked he, and then said 'cannot one of you recite alTakathur', reports Abdullah Ibn 'Umar (Baihaqe).

Surah al-Zalzalah (99)

'It is equivalent to half the Qur'an', report Abdullah Ibn 'Abbas and Anas Ibn Malik (Tirmidhi).

Ayatu 'l-Kursi (al-Baqarah 2: 255)

'Do you know which Ayah in God's Book is greatest', he asked, and then showed his approval when told that this was Ayatu 'l-Kursi, reports Ubayy Ibn Ka'b (Muslim).

Amana 'r-rasul . . . (al-Baqarah 2: 285-6)

'No prophet before has been brought a light like it', reports Abdullah Ibn 'Abbas (Muslim).

'In whichever home these are recited for three nights, Satan does not come near it', reports al-Nu'man Ibn Bashir (Tirmidhi).

'It is from the treasures of God's mercy from under His Throne that He has given to this Ummah. There is no good in this-world and that-world which it does not include', reports Ayfa' Ibn 'Abd al-Kila'i (Darimi).

'Learn them and teach them to your women and children, for they are a blessing, a recitation, and a supplication', reports Abu Dharr (Hakim).

Surahs al-Baqarah and Al 'Imran (2 and 3)

'Read the two radiant ones al-Baqarah and Al 'Imran for they wiII come on the Day of Resurrection like two clouds, or two shades, or two flocks of birds, pleading for their companions', reports Abu Umamah (Muslim).

'The Qur'an will be brought on the Day of Resurrection, along with its companions who used to act by it, at the front being Surah al-Baqarah and Al 'Imran like two black clouds or canopies with light, or two flocks of birds pleading for their companion', reports al-Nawwas Ibn Sam'an (Muslim).

Surah al-Baqarah (2)

'Do not turn your homes into a graveyard [by giving up reading the Qur'an]. Satan flees from a house in which Surah al-Baqarah is recited', reports Abu Hurayrah (Muslim).

'Recite Surah al-Baqarah: for to hold on to it is a barakah (blessing), to leave it is a regret', reports Abu Umamah (Muslim).

'Everything has a hump, and the hump of the Qur'an is al-Baqarah', reports Abu Hurayrah (Tirmidhi).

Surah al-An'am (6)

'So many Angels accompanied its revelation that the horizon was covered with them', reports Jabir ( Hakim).

Surah al-Kahf (18)

'Whoever learns and preserves, in heart and practice, the first ten Ayahs of al-Kahf, he will be protected from al-Dajjal', reports Abu al-Darda' (Muslim).

'Whoever recites Surah al-Kahf on a Friday, light will shine brightly for him till next Friday', reports Abu Sa'id (Hakim).

Surah Ya Sin (36)

'Everything has a heart and the heart of the Qur'an is Ya Sin. Anyone who reads it, God will write down for him ten readings of the Qur'an', reports Anas (Tirmidhi).

'Whoever reads Ya Sin, seeking Allah's pleasure, his past sins will be forgiven, so recite it over the dying among you', reports Ma'qil Ibn Yasar (Baihaqi).

Surah al-Fath (48)

'I like it more than anything under the sun', reports 'Umar (Bukhari).

Surah al-Rahman (55)

'Everything has an adornment, and the adornment of the Qur'an is al-Rahman', reports Abdullah Ibn Mas'ud (Baihaqi) .

Surah al-Waqi'ah (56)

'Whoever recites Surah al-Waqi'ah every night will not go hungry', reports Abdullah Ibn Mas'ud (Baihaqi).

Surah al-Mulk (67)

'This, containing thirty verses, intercedes for a man till his sins are forgiven', reports Abu Hurayrah (Ahmad, Tirmidhi, Abd Da'ud).

'I love that it be in the heart of every believer', reports Abdullah Ibn 'Abbas (Hakim).

Surah al-A'la (87)

'He loved this Surah', reports 'Ali (Ahmad).

2006-10-26T03:05:00.000-05:00

I have mastered wasting time.

I'm a disease

2006-10-24T14:07:00.000-05:00

My head feels like it's gonna explode. If only it would...

2006-10-22T12:40:00.000-05:00

We are in such a state of loss and ignorance.

Treatment 1: Qur'an

2006-10-19T15:14:00.000-05:00

Reading, reciting, and pondering over the meanings of verses in the Qur'an is a sure-fire way to cleanse the heart. As has been recently discovered in science, the heart is a center of perception which itself sends over 40,000 neurons to the brain. It has also been discovered that the heart can and will behave indepedent of the brain. This essentially coincides with the Islamic belief that the heart is the center of human consiousness.

The soul is contained within the heart.

The words, meanings, and sounds of the Qur'an directly affect the heart and soul. Notice sometimes people (Muslims and non-Muslims alike) will hear the Qur'an recited and be moved without understanding anything they have heard. This is because the heart knows things that the mind has yet to learn. With repeated exposure to the Qur'an it will help.

[Externally] someone is moved emotionally.
[Internally] they are moved spiritually.

Disease 2: Attachment to the dunya

2006-10-18T20:24:00.000-05:00

My iman is crashing. Not that it was all that high, but yeah it's droppin down.

Being attached to worldly things is pure idiocy. It is fact, that nothing in this life lasts forever. The only thing sure is death [and the end of all things worldly]. So why [do I] lead life while clinging to things that [I know] will not last? Am I just that stupid? Or is it that my heart is poisoned? Maybe a lil bit of both?

Depression...
Hopelessness...
Lack of motivation...
Rinse and repeat the cycle...

Spiralling down the hole with negative, self-destructive thoughts.

Multiplying....

I need to get shot or something.

Cults within the Ummah

2006-10-18T15:04:00.000-05:00

Is AlMaghrib Institute a cult?

There is some beneficial knowledge to gain from their seminars. But some of the stuff [hiding under the facade of community] is misleading several members to become arrogant.

It is becoming a cult.

Disease 1: Ostentation

2006-10-16T19:49:00.000-05:00

Ostentation (or showing off) is a very destructive disease of the heart. In people's attempts to impress others, they in turn lie to themselves. They're hearts become diseased with falsehood and hypocrisy. Many of us reach a state of denial where we have a very hard time accepting that we are not sincere in our actions.

To be sure, ask yourself if what you do in private reflects what you do when people will notice. If you aren't sure about your actions, you can use some methods to treat this disease.

Donate money ANONOMOUSLY.
When praised, do not respond. (to avoid taking it to heart)
Keep whatever praises others make private.
Keep other accomplishments private.
Increase private acts of worship. (especially dhikr and tahhajud/qiyaam ul-layl)

Mutaharaat al-Quloob

2006-10-14T09:26:00.000-05:00

Purification of the heart is nessecary for all mankind. Our nature yearns for a return to the fitrah. This world is full of things that easily sever us from our own hearts.

To have a hard heart is to have weak iman.

Allah yihdeena jami'an.

Fear + Hope (+ Trust) + Love = Faith

2006-10-12T00:07:00.000-05:00

As many people misunderstand, faith is not simply acknowledging on the tongue or in the mind. Actions of the limbs and intent in the heart help define true faith.

Fear of Punishment.
Fear of Failure.
Fear of Humiliation.
Fear of Eternal Damnation.

Hope in Mercy.
Hope in Future Blessings.
Trust in What Has Been Decreed.

Love for Creation.
Love for Mankind.
Love for True Knowledge.

This is a delicate balance. Imbalance jeapordizes intent or actions. Imbalance can lead to hypocrisy in the heart.

2006-10-11T22:09:00.000-05:00

Let's see where the soul takes us...

Knock knock

2006-10-11T22:02:00.000-05:00

Alo? Anyone there?